well what can i say? after years and years of writing in jounals, napkins, scratch paper, and just plain old thoughts, i decided to go cyber! this is just a compiliation of who i am. just another way to express myself, really. i feel that sometimes you do need a little "me" time of just solice and solitude! Here i am free to say ANYTHING on my mind, and unfortunately, sometimes in the "real world", you don't for whatever reasons. Here i am safe, my 'Comfort zone." I can tell you that the last 2 1/2 years of my life has been a different one. I can call it my 'Double life"! I am sure most people have one depending what it is that they want to keep hidden, but nevertheless it's something that we choose. I think i have seen-done more these last couple of years that most people would dream about. once i dipped my feet into the water, i knew there was no returning. I can't imagine going back into the "vanilla" world, once i got a taste of whats on the other side of the fence! Being open-minded now has really opened up my eyes as to whats out there, expanding your horizons, and knowing what your boundries of what I do and don't like. I left the typical norm of life(mostly on some weekends!) of doing what society tells us not to do or how to behave. Don't get me wrong, I am still the "good girl", nothing has changed about that, just with the "bad girl" tendencies! "so what" you say? there are alot of them. yes, thats true. but not many who have been married for 18+years! I think life is too short not to explore different things, and that is the beauty of it, to explore things together. I think we have explored and created different experiences now in our late 30's that we ever did when we were single and even in our early 20's! threesomes, foursomes, groups, etc.. i know in 30-40 years from now, i want to look back and say" yeah, I/we did that" "that was fun", i don't want to get older and find out that it was too late to do anything wild. Single, married, divorced or widowed, we can create our experiences, whatever they may be, so try and make it a good one! now, come with me as you step into my world...